Listen to what I have to say. Suicide has crossed my mind a lot, more than you’ll ever fucking know, I can’t begin to count the number of times where I told myself, I’m fucking done, I can’t do this shit no more or how many times I actually had that damn pistol in my hand. I put my all into the simplest things but still shit goes wrong, I pour my heart out for my accomplishments but yet something goes wrong, but you know what? The day they told me that someone so dear and close to my heart had her days numbered, it changed me! Do you know how bad she wants to live? Do you know how bad she wants to be able to walk, to talk, to eat, to just stand the fuck up and have her feet on the ground?! Do you know you have what so many little kids, and adults with cancer or just a terminal sickness want? You have a chance at life!!! You have a chance to just fucking live! While they wish and pray for a cure to just stay alive, you’re over here contemplating suicide? On some real shit, I know it gets hard, I know what it feels like to have the world against you, I know what it’s like to see someone get their life taken away in front of your own eyes, I know what it’s like to see the women who gave birth to you slave herself just to pay the mortgage, I know what it’s like to have your name dragged of the fucking dirt like it’s nothing, I know what it’s like to see other people who don’t deserve shit get it all, I know what the fuck it feels like to be backstabbed by one of your parents, but, am I still here? Has suicide got the best of me? FUCK NO! So what makes you think you should pull a stupid ass move for someone who doesn’t acknowledge you? For someone who genuinely wants nothing to do with you relationship wise? Just like the person you’re dreading for has you, you too have someone dreading for you, but you know what? You don’t know that cause you’re to busy admiring a shiny stone rather than picking up the dusty diamond!!!
This goes out to anyone contemplating suicide!